This may be a long post. As of 2010 I left the Catholic church. I had been Catholic my whole life and even attended and graduated from Catholic school. I went through a troubling time when I left my religion. I found science and felt that the world and universe were to big for our little lives to matter to some God. To me, God was too jealous and crazy to follow. Before becoming an Atheist I thought Jesus was more of a man to follow, if any. He seemed way less judgemental and more loving to all people rather than just those who were more willing to kill their own children as a way to show their love for God.
It just seemed to off and odd to me. I didn't want to follow a religion with such violence. No one could see nor understand my thought process on the matter. Still to this day, it's hard to mention the reasoning for not attending church, to my loved ones. They're Baptists, very kind people, very loving. They worry so much about me and my husband that we will go to hell because we don't attend church with them, or pray.
As time goes on, I spend more time with my very religious in laws, and I find myself missing the community I had with catholicism and religion in general. I miss the worship and the sense of spiritually. I miss the ritual. I found myself feeling the need to be a part of something again.
As of this past Sunday, yes Easter, I began researching Wicca and Paganism. It began to feel so right, I have felt like I'm a part of something again. However, there's no way I can reflect and share these feelings with others, as these thoughts are considered evil or wrong.
I found this website through researching and joined to find others who follow Wicca or Paganism. I'm a baby to this [Religion?] I've got the basic concepts down but I still don't know where to begin. Do I worship a God or Goddess? Do I use crystals for healing, even though I don't really believe in such a thing? So, I find myself wondering, what do you all believe? What is your Wiccan/Pagan ritual? Feel free to correct me on anything that I'm explaining wrong. Like I said, I'm a baby to this. Also, feel free to ask me many questions? I really don't know where to begin. I came here for you all to guide me and I hope to do the same one day, when I've reached that point in my life.
At this point, I glad that I've begun a path of enlightenment. I'm glad I've found something to bring me back to being spiritual.
I look forward to holding discussions with you all.